Fallen

I have fallen today so deep. I thought i would have someone on who i can lean on. Someone who is everytime there for me. Someone who understands me and who i understand. It hurts to realize that you were just thinking. The person, who was your inner voice, doesn't exist anymore. No one who is there for you. Suddenly you don't have an inner voice. No orientation what is wrong and what is right. Than you fall and fall. Someday you find yourself on the bottom of every bottle.